A word in your shell-like
by Anna Fernandes
There’s no blood spotted on my pillow.
No sand pouring forth or anything like that.
It’s just that sounds land dully
as if plopped into ashes and I think
somewhere in there my cochlea might be
a tucked-up prawn —
overcompensating, sussurating whispers —
stuck in a pin-sharp shriek.
In the pink dark, I see sound stumble
over patched and tender fuzz
where swaying stereocilia is worn
down to a brittle pearlescence.
It blindly corkscrews the eustacian tube,
whorling vast echoes round a gastropod’s columella.
Yes, there’s some distortion.
Through a grotto’s burnt-out membrane,
vivid liquids mingle in secret pools —
oil and sea-sick water.
When that happens I cock my head
this way and that,
dislodge ancient mineral salts, tumble crystals
until they shake loose —
a mute rock-fall
of filthy shale and ammonites
and pyrite trilobites and snatches
of songs and words unpronounced
and that’s when I
violently flail, float away.
I can’t hear very well
and there goes my blood
lapping the shore, that’s all.
Anna Fernandes lives near Bristol and writes about grief and chronic illness. Her work has been most recently published in Canary Collective, Ink Sweat & Tears and Dust Poetry and was shortlisted for the Laurie Lee Prize for Writing 2024 and 2025. Anna is on Instagram @annafernandeswrites.
