Shotgun Diagram
by Brendan Byrne
I only watched it once: that video of you in the
stick-trees, cradling a 20-gauge in your arms like
a child, like melting snow in the palms of spring,
firing it three times, with the crow’s crows, into
nothing, although it could have been anything,
the frame only holding your body and the gun’s
hot steel, glowing like a star, like a constellation
bit come to ground, broken off or freed. And
years ago, drowning in your brother’s clothes,
lying on the late-winter bed of leaves, having
followed me into the dark, both of us afraid
of the morning, sun spilling over the horizon
like wrath, like a hound, soft kiss to my temple,
I wondered if this were a sign, a flood, a grave
robbing, for when your hair grew long–as I hid
still, buried with a thousand undaunted beetles,
first snow coming for me–that buckshot might
fill me like rain, three thuds like the slowing
of a train, the sewing of a wound, lips pressed
into a wooden comb like the nape of a neck,
prayer bound in the squeal of a weather-vane.
Brendan Byrne is a student at Hamilton College in Central New York. His work has previously appeared with Green Ink Poetry Press, the Hyacinth Review, and The Shore Poetry. He will begin his MFA in Poetry at Florida State University this summer.
