by Millie Tullis

each december I pulled her
from boxes of christmas decor
set her beside my cd/tape player & watched

she did nothing
& still I remember her
clearer than any other piece of

childhood I remember her
smooth soft cold
coat

I heard her emptiness
when I rattled her nothing
knocked against the nothing inside of her

I tipped her upside down peered
into that hollow center
saw her

absent belly absent breath how the whole
beautiful bag of her body had been
emptied

being silent & pastless
made her more beautiful
& so I loved her

Millie Tullis is a poet and folklorist from northern Utah. Her poetry has been published in Sugar House Review, Rock & Sling, Cimarron Review, Juked, Ninth Letter, and elsewhere. She is the Editor-in-Chief of Psaltery & Lyre, an online journal pushing the borders of sacred and secular. You can find her on Twitter and Instagram @millie_tullis.

by Sarah-Jane Crowson

The lilacs watched us from the fragrant garden–
heavy and bewildered like a drowning.

That time before the world was boxed
in a whisper before…

before the darted glance, distorted.
Before eyes were moth-wings,
soft as charcoal dust,
like a land that is locked, or lost.

*

It came to her that she had been alone for so long
that she had become a statue.

*

She thought of all the worlds she had forgot.
The slip and haste of red clay,
the barefoot wild symmetries
and all those quiet words turning moth
to fly –decay in cold uncertain rooms.
They say the moon is silvered, a metaphor only,
loud and lone and tarnished.
They say I am distracted by wings.

Safe, lost in the dark woods the moths
whispered small decrees of dust –
the kind of truth that splits
fallen branches –ecstatic with decay.
And when she fell, like a twisted root,
they caught around her, uncertain,
uncertain, uneven, impossible

whispers of midnight, our hair unleashed,
rain-drenched, unpinned, unlocked.

This poem accompanies Sarah-Jane’s collage, “Uncertain Objects” – this is part of the series “Discontented objects of terrestrial desire” which can be seen in her portfolio.

Sarah-Jane’s art and poetry is inspired by fairytales, nature and her personal emotional landscape. It is informed by ideas of accidental trespass, surrealism and romanticism. She is an educator at Hereford College of Arts, and a postgraduate researcher at Birmingham City University, investigating ideas of the ‘critical radical rural’. Sarah-Jane’s images an poetry can be seen in various UK and US journals, including The Adroit Journal, Rattle, Waxwing Literary Journal, Petrichor, Sugar House Review and Iron Horse Literary Review. You can find her on Twitter @Sarahjfc, Instagram @Sarah_jfc or on her website at sarahjanecrowson.art

by Ashley Cline

for example: if you stand still enough / on a forest trail in late-february

a butterfly will mistake you for nature / pass so close

that you will hear the monsoon of her wings / in distant harbors—

picture it: the way the water laps at the hull of a ship / sounds like amen

in any tongue / cut to an event horizon: the 18th century

a ship leaves port, sets sail / with it a seed balanced in ballast waters—

history of the common reed / as intricate

as any prayer

An avid introvert, full-time carbon-based life-form & aspiring himbo, Ashley Cline’s poetry has appeared here, & also there. Once, in the summer of 2019, she crowd-surfed an inflatable sword to Carly Rae Jepsen, & her best at all-you-can-eat sushi is 5 rolls in 11 minutes. She is also the author of four chapbooks of poetry. Twitter: @the_Cline. Instagram: @clineclinecline. Linktree: @ashleycline.

by Renee Emerson

CW: Infant loss, intense grief.

I still look at pictures of my baby
that died, still have her clothes
shadowboxed like Snow White.
The notes taped in her hospital
room—hold her, sing—instruct
the silence gently, tucked
in the casket blanket. I do not
think about what happened to her
body—folding in on itself in places,
expanding past borders—both
too large and too small, a dress
better suited to another. I do not
think about what happens now.
I catch the thoughts like birds
in my fists, singing stone and pebble
songs, singing goodnight, Dearheart,
goodnight, and I crush them,
feather and bone.

Renee Emerson is the author of the poetry collections Keeping Me Still (Winter Goose Publishing 2014), Threshing Floor (Jacar Press 2016), and Church Ladies (Fernwood Press 2023). She is also the author of the chapbook The Commonplace Misfortunes of Everyday Plants (Belle Point Press), and the middle grade novel Why Silas Miller Must Learn to Ride a Bike (Wintergoose Publishing 2022). She lives in the Midwest with her husband and children.

by Cynthia Moon

The reverend told your mama God knows
the pain of losing a son. But God is doing alright,
sleeping soundly. Beside your body,
I held your mother and thought of Mary
on the ground, reaching, how she couldn’t
change a single law of gravity
to save her child’s life.

Oh these fools these holy men
identifying always with God –
with God who must go to his knees
for no one, God who has
begged for nothing.

Cynthia Moon’s poetry appears in Best New Poets 2022, minnesota review, DIAGRAM, Frontier Poetry, The Florida Review, and elsewhere. She is a therapist and lives with her beloved daughter and their dog in a small town near Lake Michigan. Cynthia was previously published under her former name, Cyndie Randall.