Soft machine, you are breathing wrong
by Alison Heron Hruby
this, from a Medical Linear Accelerator (LINAC)
I thought I could breathe well,
that I could draw in my ribs like an expert,
knew the fundamentals in my heart,
to exhale what I did not need.
But a basement machine was patient—
subterranean to keep
gears cold, beams aimed sharply.
Someone else’s idea of keeping life
moving,
as I first thought breath moved.
Metal, paper, thin,
and pleasant sternness,
politely saying:
your intimately held expertise,
you are now mandated to expose.
But say, (instead!) remain a secret, or, maybe
there is expertise more expansive,
it expands beyond your heaviest,
most luscious breath
(your childhood, lollipop breaths).
Those difficult music lessons, the clicking
of a metronome, a doctor needing
to direct me, open your ribs, retract.
The physicist readies a lovely, organ-sized
sphere to cover one, small part of my chest.
The machine murmurs like soil,
Only I know
where to find your heart.
Alison Heron Hruby (she/hers) is a professor of English education at Morehead State University and lives in Lexington, Kentucky. Her poetry is published in Thimble Literary Magazine, Red Tree Review, Sleet Magazine, ONE ART: a journal of poetry, and elsewhere. You can find her on Bluesky @alisonheronhruby.bsky.social and Instagram @alliehope68
