by Mary Christine Delea

1.

because they have no curiosity, have said good-bye
to things, have left the flow of contagion
that is us. They know
there is nothing more for them here.

2.

Our doubt is our obstacle. The way we cannot let go.
How we want them to show themselves,
convince ourselves that the low creaking of stairs,
woeful moaning at night, small items moved
around the house are our loved ones reaching out.
Forensics be damned.

3.

Eager to unmask what we believe are their attempts
at communication, we are left back where we started.

Without them.

4.

And they never know, stuck in their yellow bog
of deep dead silence,
how we go to their favorite places,
cry when we hear their favorite songs,
ask the tarot reader at the farmer’s market
for signs of their departed devotion.
They cannot imagine how each night we hope
to dream their living selves back to us,
if only in our sleep, if only they could know
how much we want them back,
if only they could obey.

Mary Christine Delea is the author of The Skeleton Holding Up the Sky and 3 chapbooks. Delea has a website which includes a blog where she posts poems she loves with short commentaries twice a week. She also writes a Substack called Peeled Citrus Prompts, which provides creative prompts for writers and visual artists. She is a former college professor, social worker, Poet-in-the-Schools, and retail manager. Delea now volunteers for various nonprofits and leads poetry workshops in-person and online. Recent publications include Toasted Cheese Literary Journal, Reverie Magazine, The Mackinaw, and Map Literary. You can also find her on Facebook and Threads.