The Last Great American Beauty Queen
by Violette Smith
red velvet blonde curls sick as a bitch in heat
Well, I was drinking poisoned water and walking over honeybees,
as any saintly creature might.
Weaned on arsenic and dandelions
Sweet little princess like me!
On a Louisiana oil rig Daddy let a man down easy
All I had I gave, all I had I gave
And that’s just the way of this sad old world
the night was black as ever, Daddy’s hair was flaxen gold
You’re the closest thing to a girl we’ve got
And it’s lonely out here in the Bayou
Let ‘em down easy, Daddy taught me,
but don’t go down without a fight,
‘Cause there ain’t nothing special ‘bout a dead deer
save for the one who killed it.
I come from a long line of quiet beauties,
taxidermied alligators & abandoned daughters
Up late wishing for selkies and mustang ponies,
crying when the old truck broke down
You see, I never made it to Arizona
but I got bloodlines stretchin’ from Maine to California
So Grandpa pulled up lobster traps & crashed convertibles:
I held a fox beneath my dress & let it gut me
Let me tell you ‘bout that wisteria tree, how they cut it down
Men don’t let pretty things rest, darlin’
Vulpine angel, I was getting tougher,
choking down venison and chicken bones.
Little girl made of patience and miracles!
I must always be believed
Grandma took her crosses off the wall &
I dreamt of the dam breaking, a great flood coming
underwater apple trees, her arm in a sling
There’s no point in living if you ain’t moving mountains
No point in breathing if you can’t be done harm
They might write about this sort of thing in the local paper;
snow-capped pines & empty Januarys, Daddy rowed me over lost towns
Sugar, learn how to spot ‘em, (swift river valley, that good ‘ol Irish luck)
Springsteen through the stereo makes us all drive faster
Sometimes I prayed to a God.
There is no such thing as dying breeds.
black racer, milk, garter, ring neck, red bellied, timber rattler, northern water.
Generally speaking, I was quite beautiful.
Violette Smith is a multimedia artist from Massachusetts. Her work is centered around themes of gender, sexuality, desire, trauma, and modern mythology. She is currently an undergrad at Trinity College Dublin studying Archeology and Classical Civilizations. Her poems and photographs have been published in Icarus Magazine, as well as other chapbooks. For more art check out @violett7s on instagram, and @violetteforevernever on tumblr. She also contributes lyrics, vocals and synth to Violet Horror Show, a music collective.

